blerg. sick. pop tarts.

Pop tarts are gross - especially ones that have been in vending for gawd knows how long. They are especially gross when you didn't sleep well the night before, despite being exhausted enough the three days before to be napping every 3 hours.

No matter how sick you feel, how much you want them, how much you want to believe in the good of mankind, remember: pop tarts are gross.

delaying motherhood

So I thought about it long and hard - and followed Janel's advice to sleep on it and go with what my gut tells me. And what my gut tells me is that, as adorable as Vanessa is, I'm not ready for motherhood.

Its not so much because it will affect my life that I'm making this decision, but I don't know if I can take care of a puppy right now, with everything going on. I want to get my sh*t together, get into a more stable routine, save up some money, and spend time to puppy-proof the house. Do some spring cleaning, you know?

I don't want to go on an emotional bender and end up neglecting my baby or something. Basically, I need more time than a week and a half to prepare - mentally, emotionally, financially. Anything less would be unfair to the baby.

So I've decided to wait until after the New Year to look for a puppy. In the meantime, I've already made a list of all the things I need to line up to prepare for having one. It breaks my heart, given how adorable she is, but I think that she deserves a family that can guarantee more stability than I can right now.

will i be a mommy soon?

No, not like that. Silly - who needs more Serena's in the world! But I've recently decided to get a puppy, and now, things are moving very very fast!

I found a little baby doxie in rescue the other day, and applied for her. Its between me and someone else at this point, and I'll know by next week. In any case, she could be coming as soon as next weekend! OMG! I need to puppy-proof the house, get supplies, buy a playpen, find socialization groups, etc etc.

Am I ready to become a mommy? I'm not 100% sure, but I do know that my heart melted when I first saw her picture. If this one doesn't work out, I'll wait until after the New Year to start looking for another one.

However, as taken aback as I am by the speed of this (you know me, always like to have things planned out, ready and in place), I think its time that I just went with things, no? I think it will be a great way to learn how to be a good parent before actually making a mini-me.

So... I'm just letting fate decide. If I get her, I'm ready. If I don't, I'll wait to look after the New Year, when I'll have saved some more $ and gotten my act together.

Besides, look at that face! Look at those pictures! How can you say no?













Rob Quote of the Day:

Rob: do you have to feed them when they are that small?
Serena: um, yes.
Serena: did you have to eat when you were a baby?

and the spillage begins again

This morning, I got to work with my neat new haircut, nice ironed dress, on time for once. And I spilled coffee not once, but TWICE, before 10am.

I think that's a higher power telling me that its time to go shopping. After all, my best purchases have resulted from coffee-induced emergency runs to BR.